Empiezo a escribir, son las 9.18 am, estoy despierta hace aproximadamente 3 horas por lo tanto dormí nada más que 2 horas y media, 3.
Creo que todo esto que está pasándome no tiene explicación para mi mente, me siento en tremenda nube que es tormenta todo el tiempo.
A horas de mi cumpleaños número 17, no tengo ganas de saber más nada con nada, excepto del hombre que me dió todo en la vida y más y hasta lo que no podía tener a su alcance.
Fui tan tarada, desvaloricé todo lo que hizo por mi y me cagué en todo y estoy a punto de perderlo todo.
JAMÁS en la historia de mi vida sentí e hice todo lo que por vos. Nunca NADIE me importó más que vos y si eso es lo que di a entender, me equivoqué.
Ya creo que no hace falta ocultar más nada.
Vos me diste todo todo todo y es diferente, son distintos sexos... Así que de eso no comparemos.
Se me nubla la vista mientras escribo esto, pero es que necesito desahogarme... Me siento tan.. no se.. Despreciabas a otras mujeres, eran inmirables para vos, y ahora estoy adentro de la misma bolsa, que doloroso.
Lo único que te pido, porque sé que lees mi blog Maximiliano... que si sentís lástima por mi y te hiciste el tierno anoche y dejaste de ser tan duro conmigo solamente porque estuve al borde del camino, te pido por favor que me lo digas... No quiero que me tengas lástima, quiero que me tengas amor.
Vos y mi vieja son lo único importante que tengo en la vida, y si algún día me falta alguno de ustedes, la mitad de mi corazón queda vacío. Y si me faltan los dos, directamente no existo.
No voy a negar que ahora estoy muerta en vida y que lo que me mantiene viva es saber que en 1 hora te voy a ver y que sea lo que Dios quiera... aunque no crea en él, no no, la verdad que no.
Me siento tan debastada...pero te amo con la vida...

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White Rabbit#

White Rabbit#
One pill makes you larger And one pill makes you small And the ones that mother gives you Don't do anything at all Go ask Alice When she's ten feet tall And if you go chasing rabbits And you know you're going to fall Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar Has given you the call Call Alice When she was just small When men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow Go ask Alice I think she'll know When logic and proportion Have fallen sloppy dead And the White Knight is talking backwards And the Red Queen's "off with her head!" Remember what the dormouse said; Keep your head

Who do you love - The Doors

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah.
I walked a forty damned miles on barbed wire,
Cobra-snake for a necktie.
Brand new house by your roadside,
Made of rattlesnake hide.

Brand new chimney, made on top,
Made out of human skull.
Come on baby, take a walk with me,
Tell me, who do you love?

Who do you love now?
Who do you love now?
Who do you love, babe?
I said who now, who do you love?

Tombstone head and a graveyard mind,
Just 22 and I don't mind dying.
Rode around town with a rattlesnake whip,
Come on baby, don't give me no lip.

Who do you love now?
Who do you love?
Who do you love, child?
I said who baby, who do you love?

Night is dark, the sky was blue,
Down the alley the ice wagon flew.
Hit a bump, somebody screamed,
You should have heard just what I seen.

Do you love him, babe?
Do you love her, yeah?
Do you love me, babe?
Do you love him, yeah, heh, yeah? Y-e-eah.

This is the end, beautiful friend

This is the end, my only friend

The end of our elaborate plans

The end of everything that stands

The end

No safety or surprise

The end

I'll never look into your eyes again

Can you picture what will be

So limitless and free

Desperately in need of some stranger's hand

In a desperate land

Lost in a Roman wilderness of pain

And all the children are insane

All the children are insane

Waiting for the summer rain

There's danger on the edge of town

Ride the King's highway

Weird scenes inside the gold mine

Ride the highway West, baby

Ride the snake

Ride the snake

To the lake

To the lake

The ancient lake, baby

The snake is long

Seven miles

Ride the snake

He's old

And his skin is cold

The West is the best

The West is the best

Get here and we'll do the rest

The blue bus is calling us

The blue bus is calling us

Driver, where are you taking us?

The killer awoke before dawn

He put his boots on

He took a face from the ancient gallery

And he walked on down the hall

He went into the room where his sister lived

And then he paid a visit to his brother

And then he walked on down the hall

And he came to a door

And he looked inside

Father

Yes son?

I want to kill you

Mother, I want to. . .

C'mon baby, take a chance with us

C'mon baby, take a chance with us

C'mon baby, take a chance with us

And meet me at the back of the blue bus

This is the end, beautiful friend

This is the end, my only friend

The end

It hurts to set you free

But you'll never follow me

The end of laughter and soft lies

The end of nights we tried to die





This is the end.